There's a bitch...

There a farking bitch in my class. shes my classmate n left hand side locker partner... how dao mei is that? the story goes on very long... when we first started school we were enemies and we are STILL enemies. that bloody farkin bitch!!!!! hope you die!!!!!!!!! you know shes VERY mean!!! last time i always ended up with her suprisingly... then got one time PE i ended up in her team. and you know what she WHISPER to her friend?! "whats she doing here?!" OII!! KNN!!!!! THINK I AFRAID OF YOU AH??! she got face tell me in my face la!! tell your friend for what?! scaredy cat!! come lah!!! then today at PE we have netball traing. so i was holding the ball as no one wanted to play with me untill the PE teacher shouted "Fiona! this group of girls would like to play with you.." i laugh ah! they WOULD NOT like to play with me. thats because they are doing nothing and just standing there chatting does not mean that they want to play with me. so we were force to play and we just throw here throw there.. when sheb throw to me she PERPOSELY go and throw so hard. how to tell..?! when she throw you catch and feel the force and your hand quite pain when the ball slam at your hand. bitch la she. so then also today after science, we go back to the lockers to get our lunch. i arrive before my below locker partner come. so i start putting my books back, then she say "Fiona, steph is waiting for you to move" and i tell her "i know.. IM NOT BLIND!" then she go and tell steph my below locker partner what i say to her. BIG MOUTH WOMAN! i soo damm angry i slam the locker and walk off. before i walk off steph told me "its ok, Fiona" she HERSELF says its ok then why your BIG MOUTH tell me for what?!! dont tell me steph dare not tell me??!! she and i got quarrel before cause she keep saying i take so long. my foot ah. now we okok never quarrel. friends already... but i yesterday accidentally drop the locker on her head...dunno whether angry with me... and btw, i was rushing ok... so that steph can put her books. i threw everything in and quickly put in neatly and ran away.. how good is that?! she leh... stay at the locker, look at her hp and SHOW OFF! she put her bag on the third space everytime, so everytime go home, she will pull and pull untill the bag come out. one times she pull ah, the WHOLE locker wobble. siao la she. so anyone who support me pls tag my tagboard and give me suggestion to make her life like hell. greatly appreciated. =)

First few days at school since holidays...

Today ssoooo damm bloody cold. the weather very weird... cold wind and have sunshine... so my legs were frozen. luckily PE in the hall.. or else i die le. in english we had to this film review i dunno what movie to review lehz. all oso not the BEST. i thought about using "house of the flying daggers" or else "around the world in 80 days" but both of them the story so lame... cant think of a good film. so i dunno what to choose lor. i ssoo sianz..started playing habbohotel. veri fun although my cousin say lame. hate care him la. since school started no longer start talking with the group. so i go library and read books. so ke lianz... the people aren't friendly AT ALL! some of them are... today after school i walk back home then walk back to school again. siao hor? but then we go back is to buy pants and some cotton thights for winter. when we go there, so many people!!!! then i saw 3 classmates trying the winter uniform. the winter uniform is soo gay. its long sleeve and a ultra thick n long skirt. i saw all the student in my year level all complain the uniform so big and all the mothers all joke about the uniform. so after i try out and buy, the whole shop nearly empty sia. anwayz, yesterday i did the most stuuupiidd thing in my whole life. during drama, we walk ard like a siao gina. the drama teacher says it good exercise. i say we look like idiots walking round n round. then we got to do another play. 2 want the beach and 2 want the cafe, i want the hairdresser sene. lol.. in the end they choose beach. my group play so lamee~ sure get C.

PISSED OFF!!!!

*may contain vulgar words and crude language*
i am so damm pissed off!!!!! my mum ask me to shower and i did.. BUT!!!! when i came back after changing, she was using the computer. well to me its ok if she uses it. so after that i decided to do some exercise insted of waiting for her to get out of the computer by staring at her. after excercising for awhile, she called me in. so i went in to see the computer logging off. I WAS SOOO ANGRY!!! i was doing the ad-ware programme half-way and she totally wreck it!!!!!!!!!! the bloody programme scans the WHOLE system so that might take awhile AND SHE RUINED IT!!!!!! so i got to on the computer again!!! then i tried to enter use her account which i always use and GUESS WHAT??!!!! SHE SET A PASSWORD FOR HER ACCOUNT!!!!!!! im was so PISSED OFF!!!!! how could she do that!!!!!! i have been using this computer for so long!!!!!!! luckily, im smart enough to log in to another user and change her setting to "remove password". well i hope this fucking computer get all the fucking virus and it will crash!!!!!!!HAHAHAHA!!!! good bye computer!!!!! im now trying to install lots of things n make this fucking computer lag!!! and so moral of the story: NEVER TRUST ANYONE!!!!!

I AM MOVING BACK!!!

THATS IT!!!!!!!!! I MOVING BACK TO SINGAPORE AT THE END OF THE YEAR!!!!! I DONT CARE!!!!!!! the only problem is which sec school should i go?? well, if anyone see this please voice your opinion in my tagboard...not like anyone bothers looking at my blog...*sigh* life here damm sucks!! maybe only come back here to study for university only. but another then that, IM MOVING BACK!!! not that anyone will miss me or anything... and im NOT going to celebrate my 13th birthday!! AAAHHHHH!!! cant stand it anymore!!! its killing me!!!!

Chinese Books ARRIVED!!!

YAY!!!!! finally the chinese books along with Heather's letter arrive! she rocks! i dont have to be the only one not learning in the class! just suprised though the book no han yu... well good enough it came! today i went walking around, seeing those old old building around town. i think walk about 2km. so darn tired... dont know why my mum like to see all those old old building and see those park/gardens. after walking, we went to target to shop. our leg very pain but i just dont care and look around. then saw this pants almost the same except pink. wth. if i know got pink then i wont buy blue lor... idiot! so later i try another one pants..mostly pink in colour.. then not properly done..like not fitting like that, so dont one. luckily got try, if not later regret... then later we went to SUPRE and look around. so morden. got all the loud music and funky clothes! i try small size damm tight! medium is abit tight...large is okok la. and my mum say that i wont be able to wear any clothes cause im too young! ha! so then after trying two pattern, finally decided on a purple top. very decent. not sleeveless and not low cut. i very happy almost like couldnt feel my leg pain anymore! now currently got 3 weeks holiday. i left my music book at school!!!! I DIE ALREADY! 3 WEEKS HOLIDAY i never practice! just kidding la..never practice for about 4 days. hope the school open so i can rush there and take my music book home. i very worried leh..mum says school sure got open..but i doubt so lor.. anywayz, one day i saw peiyi blog and she link me! omg! one person link me without me asking or vice versa! nice!!

Stress ah!

Wah...so stress. i got to write poem 8 verse and 4 lines AND 500 words essay. nice hor?? idiot english teacher la, give us so much english homework. IDIOT LA!!!! tried to get some help from my mum to edit the 500 words essay, but she just edit afew parts only. wth. one of my friend, Lysa, help me edit the poem i did. she oso help to to edit afew parts oso. well this the poem with her edit and some of my work =) :

I pray to god everyday,
Praying that it might rain one day.
Looking out of my window,
Seeing light brown horizon of land all dried up.
The days are getting worse,
I’m starting to think that I’m cursed.
We might just move to city,
And they’re going to bring me!

We just move into the city,
What an awful place to be.
All the people staring at me,
It makes me feel so trapped.
All this traffic and people,
This not my kind of life, no!

Locked in this place,With none of my friends,

Alone with no one,

Where the nightmare never ends,

With nobody, not even my peers,

To listen to my cries,

to wipe my tears.

How I wish that I would go back to the country,
Where everybody is friendly,
It would be so good to be there,
Where the sheep always baaed.
How I long for those days,
Where I could just sit around and laze!
Watching the cows graze,
While I just look and daze…

*credits to Alyssa*

yar...not really the best poem in the world. at least not bad la. my first time what. the poem is about the girl who lives in the country and it has not been raining for many days. so the parents no choice but to move to the city and stay. she never talk when they move, in other words she hates the city. so got to write poem from her view. got to think for so long leh. im sick of editing and seeing this 2 work. i mean need to pass up on tuesday, so nvm for now. anywayz, i see lots of people using the "honey honey world" blogskin with cyndi pics on it. grrrr....i know its not copyright or anything but once one of they're favourit singer blogskin comes out, everyone starts using them. awww..how sweet..NOT! cant find any good blogskin that suits my mood...but im REALLY going to change this "honey honey world" one. well...i guess thats about it.oh...and i use green colour as it was st.patrick's day afew days ago. and i remembered that i went to science club and made glittery green slime!!

Sob.. T-T

Sumtimes it really hurts my heart seeing that people go to a mix sec school that almost everyone goes too. i mean going to a all girls school sucks. i may even go back home as i cant stand this any longer... seeing people write in their blog about their life and best friends and who they like.. really makes me sad and wishin i could just fly back straight away. but its not that easy... here lifestyle is easy n slow. back home is stress n fast. i only been here for 2 months n i feel like glying home already. no one really treat me equally like do..i mean like when they sit with each other, they talk alot when i sit beside them...silence. it REALLy hurts my heart to see them treat me different. i dont talk alot either...with them i mean. my locker partner..at one time we made fun of our sci teacher...and i was really talking n having abit fun that time. i guess its not easy adapting to an enviroment.... so i wish that god will help me. amen.

Shocking Day

Today i got band practice then tomorrow got clarinet lesson...sianz ah. Today so embarassing i thought i go school ABIT early and everyone have not arrived yet..I WAS SO WRONG!!! Upon arrival, i put my bag into my locker, take my clarinet case and music book out and went up the stairs open the door the go the hall...to MY HORROR....all the students were there sitting down and looking at me arrive late..SO EMBARRASING!!! then i quickly put my case and books down aside n took a seat in the clarinet section. then teacher/instructor kept talking... then she say split into instrument group. then we got the room next to the hall where they have all these keyboard for piano learners. we all squeeze inside there. AGAIN somthing embarassing happen... i saw everyone putting their clarinet quickly while ONLY me had a hard time putting in.. mine is new...STILL!! then the senior ask if i got cork grease i showed her a small container then she say she'll just take hers she help me grease it and help me fix abit...ME ONLY got problem!!!!! i was SSSOO embarassed....then one girl her clarinet goes all squeaky when she plays..ahahahahaz. i left out this news that on monday when i came back i saw them talking!!!! i was OMG...they made up with the girl!!!! 2 DAYS and they made up!!!!!! anywayz...nvm la. got 2 girls like very "mean"..they only save seat for the rest except me..LIKE I DONT KNOW LIKE THAT bytches!! they all give me this stare... except for one girl whos nice to me in the group. im sick and tired of them doing this to me!!! and today during lunch i walked 3 WHOLE rounds looking for them at every..YEA..EVERY spot where they used to sit and failed to...ended up sitting in the library for 5 mins colouring some homework for history which the teacher didnt ended up checking!!! anywayz..on the way back saw them and both of them CLAIM that they were looking for me...HARD TO BELIVE...then they were all sitting infront of this cross of jesus tucked away by some plants. some people are ssooo terribly they actually drop/spill/put VEGEMITE infront of JESUS!!!! hello!!!! JESUS..?? i was in TOTAL shock!!! then they were having this "fight" as one of the girl hit another girl and then the girl who was hit started pretending to cry. the trip over me and hit my leg...THANK GOODNESS it didnt hit my injury if not i would have shouted like hell. Today i got a science test. think im gona fail..didnt study that well. YAYNESS!! i got an "A 81%" for my maths!!! woohoo!!

My injured knee

Currently im putting my left leg on a stool. reason why... i fell down while riding the bike on friday. well...its a long story. but here goes...i wanted to ride to follow someone who i thought i know..but in the end i didnt knew... so i rode up the hill quickly and the bike started wobbling so badly and it lost control...and suddenly i ended up on the ground face flat and my knee and elbow was in pain. then i slowly got up and started to ride slowly up..thankfully it was very near my hse frm the place which i fell. then my mum just ask me to wash my own wound.. and i did when currently doing tat i was screaming like hell..was it pain what. so i sat down n play computer while it was drying. the wound was very red then i saw drop by drop, red drops flow down frm my wound. it was damm gross... so got to wipe slowly. after that my mum decided put gauze n some cream to make it better. i ask her to change it dont know how many times as it was so ugly. eewww. yesterday my hole wound was covered in this yellow liquid..double eeeeewwwww... and so today i spend the whole morning lying on the sofa as mum didnt want me to move. so i spent the whole morning looking at the tv or looking at my sci book. hope my wound gets better.. i think it is though...its drying up. btw.. tomorrow can go for DOUBLE P.E... sob..sob..sob..

New things

YAY!!!! my clarinet has finally arrived after so many days. not fair lehz... only today den arrive it should have arrived on wed!!!!! idiot la!! never mind...good that is here liaoz. today during lunch i went with the grp. we made-up already like i said before. i have a feeling like if i talk more they'll like me more as im so quiet. i oso find myself abnormal not talking as much. anywayz, after they asked ppl where she is n tell them not to tell her they asked, they went to the locker room to check if shes there. i went to put my container back as it was on the way ma.. n found that they were gone!! i went around finding them but failed to. in the end decided to go back to my locker and guess what??!!! I saw them sitting on the floor.... i was like -_-" haizz... my efforts looking for them are wasted!!! and i oso found out that makeing a line with yr scissors on the back top part of yr planner is the "in" thing. so i did.. is quite a gd idea ma!! kana scolded by my mum but not realli scold lorx.. she just say "why u do tis for?" heeheehee... COOL DAI MA!!!

Photos Day

Today is school photo day.And they actually make a big deal out of it lehz!!All so hao lian de. Each time i go to the toilet, so crowded sia!! Either adjusting their hair or putting mascara or foundation. makes me wana puke sia..i mean like crazy ah.. nothing to do better in their life like that. i mean like no big deal..if all the people hair messy only yours nice whats the point.. haizz anywayz, now for other things. Today got clarinet lesson, n i dont have clarinet lehz!!! my dad la.. say what not worth renting...since we already bought it and its going to arrive in like a week time. so learn some basic stuff... like reading notes.. which i still suck at. tats one of the reason why i quit band at pri school... cause i suck at reading notes. i think i'll never master it. oh did i mention tat i hav to pay $13 a lesson? SIAO RITE??!! haizz...can find alot of nice good old food here.. i found my yummy chee kweh!!! but not as nice sia.. cant be tat picky ehz? good enough my mum found a stall that sells em!! nice dai! now my dad computer gone no more gb to play...so now very sianz..shyt la nothing to do now... and finally.... double yay!!! as they're talking to me again.. u know.. the group... nice!!!

Feeling terribe and sad today

Today i think i did something very bad...maybe not tat serious lorx..but still....During PE today a friend to be wanted to use the light javelin i took but instead i said no. Then she looks angry and yet sad. Now i feel terrible, and during class i daren't sit with the "group". But her frens still say hi and bye to me...so is that a good sign?? I now feel sad as i feel so bad. And when i add her yesterday and she went online today and she said ask me who i am. I replied "Fiona". She goes "fiona who?" and i was lyke in total SHOCK!! Then i told her to guess who i am as my dad suggest it and i did. Guess what was her re-action?? She replied "i dont know who u r u must be harassing me".HAHAHAHA!!!! You're not -miss popular-must be frens with- why the heck must i harass you??!! Funny lehx..My dad den again tell me to tell her "sori see u tmr den" and i did and i quickly block her. Didnt want to let her see mi online. Plus oso today smth very funny happen. Back home, the weather so hot right and lyke wan to die rite? Today the water pipe kana hit by the machine cos got construction... so no water for the water cooler and tap in the toilet. See their face lyke wan to die lyke that and hor they let us home early lehz!!! So we miss last period and second last period. NICE SIA!!!

What I have learned so far...

These few days i learned lots of things, sum good sum bad... Good thing is that i learned how to ride a bike.. YAY!!! The bad stuff is that my things are DAMAGED after sending them here.. GGGRRR.... feel like killing the person hu destroyed it!!!! I oso learned that my school has all this stupid stuff to learn like drama.. DRAMA!!! how stupid and lame is that??!! And now we got to this research thing of mime. Then we have this performance coming up..and all my team mates sux.. They all take over lyke they're in charge.. BLEH!! Then we have to learn religious education.. the teacher is lyke totally... freaky!!! i guess... Tell them we learn enough already!!! Then we have to learn chinese which is SSSSOOOO easy for me, french is hard though. Hope i make some frens so if not im a loner..meaning no frens to be with.. even though theres 1 girl... shes always like so annoying... hope these few days gets better.. wish me luck!!

The school

School is ok i guess.. except that theres too many ang moh...haiz..sum things here is much easier ecept english.. i suck at it terribly here. Im like almost the only asian in the school and everyone has like friensd and im like a loner and that means like i have no frens. And theres this girl hu is a fuckin idiot.. and i just KNOW she doesnt like me.. and she was like "whats she doing here?" and stuff.. bleh.. fark her.. and theres swimming trials tomorrow n im probably the ONLY one who doesnt know now to swim... its TOTALLY gonna be embarassing and i dont have goggle so i cant see anything at all... and i have a bathers which is 2 piece and most ppl probably all wearing 1 piece... and its cold now..so tomorrow should be cold.. and im scared..but i wan to go........Today is FREEZING cold btw.. n i have PE today and that means wearing a skirt and i was like freezing as my classmates almost all have trackpants and so they were warm...and it has been raining all day and the news say its the coldest whether in SUMMER in febuary since 1951...im like.. having cold feet and all...argh.. fark the weather...

My pain start

I think no one understands the pain i feel rite now being in a new country and all... its really tiring and sometimes i just wish i was at home doing the usual stuff like going to school and stuff.... BUT NO!!! My mum has to move to a new country and get a damm old house with nothing but cracked n stained walls... and theres oso lots of insect which totally gross me out!! And to make things worse she told me if i could never survived in the country... i mean like wtf.. i saw in a mag theres sssooo many suscessful women.. and she thinks i could NEVER be one of em'...mother not confident of daughter... wtf lorz... now im living in such a painful state.. i got to wait for my couz to do something else then i can use the comp.... at least my mum is getting cable and unliminted internet.. or else i'll die of boredom here..the pain is too much too bear.. I feel like crying sometimes by the remarks she made.. but i guess.. life is still ok...

Games related day

Today.. play gb with one of my frens... first time in was winning.. second time i play..half way through d game... chicken out!!! So i quit... sommore pretended i dc.. wahahaha..shh...lolxx... Also my fren's fren sent me a game patch... i try to do stuff to make it work but failed too.. so sad....dunno hw he do it...comp wiz sia.. sch is re opening again!! hurraayyy!!! Cos tis few days so sianz... stare at comp... summore no one likes to play gb liaoz... oni 1 or 2 lor...